Cursed Blessings


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Cursed Blessings

By Eunny

Tue 27 Dec, 2016 11:05:34 EAT
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#rejection  #choices  #judgement  


Cursed Blessings

I want to jump, I want to run,
I want to fly to a far away land,
And tell the whole world of my blessing.
Clad in sparkling white, the nurse hands me the baby.
Am all smiles and laughter,
My ear to ear smile never letting loose.
I see myself in its closed eyes,
Clenched fists,
Adorable nose.
That innocent look,
I want to get lost in its face.

For a moment am oblivious of my troubles,
And as I force my way into my mother's hut,
Crowded faces greet me with forced grins,
Nobody moves, not an inch.
Am statued at the doorway,
Expecting in vain for everyone to jump in jubilation.
1 minute, 2 minutes, 3 minutes,
Nothing.
It now feels like forever.
My lips are suddenly gray,
My forehead sweaty.
I can't help but notice the empty stares,
Misdirected giggles
Accusing eyes.

I want to scream and get lost,
Yet I want to remain insitu. For a moment I want solitude,
But this is too much a crowd.
I sense hate in the air,
Never ending agony.

I hurriedly place the kid on my mother's lap,
And wait for judgement to pass like a sledgehammer.
There's a sharp wail from the centre of the room,
A wail, not ululation.
I want to crawl out of my skin,
Am a foreigner to my erotic self.
Mama releases the baby to the floor,
Too quick to be saved by my feeble hands,
And as it crashes to the floor,
My whole world collapses within.
Covered in tears,
I cry in anguish and roll on the mud floor,
And when I finally pull myself together,
Everyone else is gone.


Alone and cold,
I stagger out of the room,
The body of what used to be my kid some minutes ago,
Now lies lifeless in my arms.
One final look into its eyes,
I see my father,
Yes, my father.
Cursed blessings.

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Comments

  • Davy
    Am speechless. I mean... That's so touching. Beautiful piece.
    378 wk ago
  • Irene
    Oh my...it feels sooo real... almost in tears. Amazing princess Eunny
    378 wk ago
  • Nel
    Wow nice. I love it
    378 wk ago
  • Eunny
    Thanks Davy, Irene and Nel.
    378 wk ago
  • Mr Mark
    awesome
    378 wk ago
  • Charlotte
    nice piece Eunny...superb
    378 wk ago
  • Eunny
    Thanks Mark. Thanks Charlotte.
    378 wk ago
  • Magata Edward
    .....persona
    378 wk ago
  • Osman
    Why?
    378 wk ago
  • Eunny
    Thanks Edward.
    378 wk ago
  • Anonymus
    Amazing piece.
    378 wk ago
  • Daughty
    hmmm this is nice
    377 wk ago
  • Joe Mesi
    Superb. Nice work up there. Keep going.
    377 wk ago
  • Eunny
    Thanks Daughty. Thanks Joe.
    377 wk ago
  • Chrispine Ochieng
    I'm in love with that piece, its awesome
    373 wk ago

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